Dear People that surround me:
What do you think my silence is? I wonder if every time I shut myself off when you do/say something I don't like you think I am a stupid fool. I am almost sure that every time I say yes to every fucking shit, and agree with you on every stupid thing you think I am the silliest person you've met, but I wonder why...?
Why do you always have to be the people that I am most closer to, the ones who do these shits to me. Do I have the word idiot painted on my face? Or is it because I grew up oppressed by a familiar dictatorship that you think I don't have a word for your fucking horrible acts.
Dear sister...
Why did you become like our mother? You abandoned your kids, and still considered yourself a mother? Do you even think about how your kids feel, or are you so fucking egocentric that you can't see the damage you're causing? Why'd you do that? Every time I speak to you, I see the clear picture of her. You make me feel like I am drowning, and I want to peel this skin these genes off me, because I hate my origin, I hate to be the product of sex between a whore and a rapist, and I hate to see that you have became exactly that, and that you sell your body and leave that man that clearly doesn't deserve you mistreat you and tell you you're crazy. I hated how you fucked your neighbor because you needed money. You still don't want to get a job and still want to get everything so fucking easy. I wonder if you convinced yourself that your best attribute was your body, and I feel so bad for you sister.
When I knew I was adopted I really wanted to know if I had a sister, someone related to me, that could understand me and wasn't exactly as my progenitors. I am not surprised though to see that life is dark, as always, and that if what you want its good, you will not have it. Now, I am sorry sister, but I don't want to keep reading your bullshit, I don't want to know that you sold your body again, that you got pregnant again and abandoned your kid, I am so tired of you and I never thought that meeting my sister was going to be so painful and make me feel like an atomic bomb, and make me explode like this without precedents.
Hmmm, interesting social commentary about people. Maybe you are asked to go along with something and people think you are uncool for sometimes not responding. It could be sarcasm about you getting a bit lonely at times lol. I skipped reading the part with your sister.
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