The Complex Act of Getting My Shit Together

When I was a kid and I dreamed about moving out and being an adult, I was thinking about it very narrow. Nobody told me there was so much involved. Money, loneliness, desperation. God, I even thought bullying was going to be over after high school but it results that even as an adult you gotta deal with that bullshit from other shitty people who don´t know how to do something better with their lives (even if they´re less capable than you in their abilities, notice that, don´t let anyone who has less knowledge than you give you orders and talk bad to you, you don´t deserve that).

Anyways, I learned that there are several things that stop-pause your growth. One of them it´s being stuck in a place because you don´t want to face changes, surprise bitch, you can´t be a victim anymore, you need to be the perpetrator, Go big or go home! but don´t be a bully, please.

I needed a wake-up call to stop being stuck, I needed someone to pull my car from the dirt, and I am very thankful for it. There´s a long COMPLEX road I have to walk. The way I look at life, laziness, victimizing myself, all that needs to improve in order for me to pull my own weight and be successful, but I know I can do it, NOBODY can tell me what I am able to do, I know myself enough, I am powerful. The world out there doesn´t owe me anything, life doesn´t owe me anything, I have opportunities given to me, because I deserve them, and I am taking them all, but saying that the world owes me has always been my way of victimizing myself, and that is going to stop.

I Like it when you Smile

I pretty much do a lot of things you're not supposed to know.
It might hurt you a bit, and I don't want to leave that scar on you.
I know you want something serious, me too, at this point though, it seems almost impossible.
I like it when you smile, I wouldn't try to have you any other way, you don't deserve it.
Yes, I want to be honest with you, I wish I didn't need to do them.
I wish I was an angel, and innocent, but I am not.
It's my survival instinct making me act quickly before I die before I get eaten by the big fish.
But I like it when you smile, Honey I wouldn't hurt you this way.
I love you, you deserve the best.
I can be the best for you, I'll take care of you,
by not telling the truth.