I have been doing great lately. I finally moved out and started getting my shit together. Got a loan for a car and got a job that I don't hate. I am finally making friends!... And even as scared as I was before, It feels fucking nice to have someone to talk to.
There are still things I gotta work with, like my daddy issues, my fear to compromise, my super high ego, but so far I am seeing results on the tedious effort I put into making my life work and the sacrifices I make for getting results.
I definitely don't have time to be depressed... All the time I got it's the nighttime to take a shower and lie in bed, although I cannot lie, sometimes I feel lonely. But then I wake up and start living my daily life and it doesn't suck. I am also learning not to take everything personally, I can see why people's life can't be just about how much attention they put to me. Something I couldn't see before.
There is still my fear of not finding a partner for life. However, looking at it realistically, I am fed up with meeting assholes that don't even have goals in their life, but I am tired of not having goals either. With that said, focusing on myself it's the most important thing I can and have to do right now. I feel useful. I don't hear the background noise in my head as much anymore. It's amazing how good life can turn out to be when you put on your big girl's pants and stop winning.
Heyyy keep up the good work! You seem a bit crazy but I'm glad you are making some nice friends lol. I like how you can talk euphemistically about yourself and just make funny insults about bad people you don't know.
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